Reset and Restart

I return today to this blog with a month elapsed, a month gone in a time warp - days I try hard not to remember. The only thing I do want to remember is that I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl on June 5 at 10:03am. Her name is Sarah Kay Quach. Born via c-section 5 lbs 9 oz, 19 inches.

She is the cutest little baby ever. So delicate yet so fiesty. She is the joy of my life.

Unfortunately, my time with Sarah after her birth was short. I was admitted to the hospital for post-partum infection 8 days after her birth. When I went to the ER on 6/13, I had no idea that I would end up staying in the hospital for the next 24 days. 3 nights in the ICU, 7 CT scans, no-food-no-liquid diets for days, drains, non-stop fevers... the pain and suffering went on. I saw Sarah only 2 times during this period. Each day I tell myself that I need to stay strong but each day new complications arise. I broke down many times. These are the days I want to forget and leave behind.

I was finally released from the hospital 7/7. I thought this day would never come but it finally did. There was a sense of euphoria when I first stepped into my own home after so many days of being gone. I can't really explain it but it was so nice to be home. I know that I still have ways to go in recovery, but it was still just nice to be home. Sarah came home the next day. That night, I gave Sean and Sarah a big hug. Our small family of 3 was finally together once again. The past month has been a "wash," so now we are resetting and restarting our time together.